Merry Christmas to all

First of all, I would like to say Merry Christmas to everyone!! Hope all your christmases be merry and bright, full of love and laughter, spent with family, friends and all your loved ones. Thank you so much for all the presents for Kairo and Indie and us!!

Our christmas this year is nothing like the other christmases we had before. Well, the obvious difference is that this year we have two kids celebrating it with us:) But the biggest and kinda sad difference is that all four of us are sick. I have to say, after a little over a week, Kairo is finally getting better, picked up his appetite and being a cherful little man he is. Indie is slowly recovering, still has the barky coughs and the runny nose, but appetite is slowly comes back and she finished a bowl and a half of her solids!

Since this is Christmas (and you tell the truth at Christmas time (according to my fave movie 'Love Actually')) I would like to let out what's bugging me this past week.

As most of you know, both Kairo and Indie got sick pretty much right after our Christmas party. This week, I spent my days, driving back and forth to a walk in clinic, Kairo's pediatrician, Children's emergency for Kairo and a pediatric walk in clinic for Indie. As a mother, the physical fatigueness is nothing compared to how emotionally drained I am when my kids are not eating, not being themselves, have high fever and seemed in pain to say the least.

Though it is true that you can pick up the bug just about anywhere, it is also true that you can at least avoid getting the bug by not having sick kids around your kids, so long that you know or been notified that those kids are sick. To me, being a mother is for most about taking care of the well being of your children. But with that, comes the sympathy and understanding to the other mothers when their kids are sick. Having been thru what I've been thru when my kids are sick, I never wish any kid to be sick, let alone kids of my family and friends. For example, the plan for this christmas was for us to spend the night at the Bennett's,but looking at how contageous my kids are , we decided that it is not very wise of us to impose Kelan to the sickness and having him expose to the germs. We've been planning this christmas get together for a couple months or so, and if you ask me, we can't wait to hang out with John and Lyn and play whatever games they already prepared for that evening (after the kids are in bed of course). But again, it would be selfish of us to take the kids there anyways just so that we can have a break.

A break...that is certainly one thing that we need but just couldn't seem to get. It so happens that our families and relatives are all far away, so we don't really have a sitter for the kids so that we can catch up with our lifes..per say. I'm not complaining..really! This is the life we chose and to be honest, I am glad that we are what we are. But this past week has been very unnecessary, not only that both kids are sick, but at the end, Shun and I got cought up with the bug. The effect of this has snowballed to not only ruined our christmas, but also ruinned the Bennetts.

Maybe it's a lesson for us next time, to constantly watch where our kids are and what they do , even in our own house! Sounds dumb, but apparently necessary. The other thing that bothers me, is that apparently Kairo spread this bug! Yes, weird but true. And here I am thinking that if he spread the bug to begin with, he would have the immunity to the same bug now wouldn't he? But hey, that's just me I guess.

So there it is...I let it out. I know being angry is really pointless, since it can't change anything really. But I figure, since this is also close to the end of the year, I'm hoping I can let it out my chest, say what I needed to say, and start the new year fresh, and of course careful.

Anyways, hope you guys' holidays are better. And may all the sick kids be better..SOON.